here i am, drawn out for the world to see.

Ten things you wish you could say to ten different people.

1) i thought i knew you, but i guess i really don't. what you did disgusts me.
2) i think we could be amazing friends; but i'm too scared of getting close only to be hurt.
3) thank you for being there. always. i love you. <3
4) sometimes, you don't think too well. c'mon. i'm leaving you enough hints, aren't i?
5) i thought we were best friends, but i guess not.
6) i would give anything to have you think about me more often than you actually do.
7) you're amazing the way you were, not the way you've become.
8) this may surprise you, but you are one of the first people who's actually cared in a long while.
9) sometimes, i miss you so much my heart wants to burst from hurting. i miss you.
10) i'm sorry.



Nine things about yourself.

1) i get nervous really easily.
2) when i get nervous, (which happens easily), my hands sweat a lot.
3) i've lost all my work drive this past year, and i now have nothing to fight for.
4) i used to dream of becoming an award-winning author, but then reality kicked in. i don't really have any dreams anymore.
5) i love having discussions with people; the feeling of two minds connecting powerfully is a moment i love.
6) i hate how superficial myspace and facebook make the world, yet i can't seem to pry myself from them anyway.
7) i'm kind of a romantic, which doesn't go over too well in these adolescent years, where everything is about sex or "getting some."
8) i'm a selfish person. i wish i gave more.
9) i cry a lot, and i'm not ashamed of it. it makes me feel freer.


Eight ways to win your heart.

1) be one of my best friends.
2) call me just to talk about nothing.
3) give me small things when i'm least expecting it.
4) show up on my doorstep one day, and take me for a drive.
5) be able to "get" me.
6) make me laugh.
7) hug me all the time.
8) love me.


Seven things that cross your mind a lot
1) friends
2) family
3) boys
4) love
5) music
6) politics
7) life.


Six things you wish you never did
1) i wish
2) i had
3) no regrets.
4) but instead
5) my regrets are too big
6) for these 6 slots.


Five turn offs
1) mean
2) being ignored
3) lying
4) over-competitiveness
5) close-minded.


Four turn ons
1) funny
2) cute
3) smart
4) caring.


Three smileys that describe your life
1) ^_^
2) =D
3) o___O


Two things you want to do before you die
1) find something i'm amazing at and go for it.
2) be happy.


One confession1) i don't know where i stand right now in life.